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Jan. 21st, 2010 @ 06:38 pm
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"She wins who calls herself beautiful and challenges the world to change to truly see her."
Naomi Wolf |
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On a more serious note...
I am thankful...
that I have the knowledge I have, and the will to use it to better myself and my world.
There are more important things than being a consumer whore and a mental vacuum.
What are you doing to leave the world you live in a better place?
I am thankful that I have people around me who have the same goals I have, or similar ones.
There are more important things than surrounding yourself with people who will pet you and stroke you and reinforce your self-esteem when you haven't got any.
Where are you going, and are the people around you going there, too?
I am thankful that I woke up when I did, all those years ago, and pulled myself out of the hole I was in to face reality and live my life.
There are more important things than polluting your body and mind with booze, drugs, or random sex partners in order to ignore all those things that are too hard to deal with.
What are you doing to save you from yourself?
Boy, was I stupid.
Whoever's watching my back, thanks. |
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Aug. 13th, 2004 @ 11:24 am
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Yeah, I'm done.
Say goodbye, gracie.
This journal is now CLOSED. |
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Aug. 11th, 2004 @ 10:59 am
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I'm going to go home and have lunch.
(yes, lunch, at 11 a.m... I've been up since seven and haven't eaten yet.)
And the coffee maker died, so I have no coffee... except I can do with the coffee what I did with the parsley and make a teabag (leave it alone) out of a coffee filter and some staples.
Yes.
I will have coffee after all! |
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You're thinking about someone from out of town -- but right now, it might not be easy for you two to actually connect.
Try to hook up early this morning, when an astrological window of opportunity will open, but just for a few hours.
BWAHAHAHAHAHA*snort*
Classic. |
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Aug. 9th, 2004 @ 11:03 am
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Blargh.
Time's up.
Maybe I'll come back later.
Or maybe I won't!
:) |
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Aug. 9th, 2004 @ 10:42 am
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Oh, and in partial reference to my last post, I found my tub-drowned copy of Still Life With Woodpecker and have begun to re-read it. |
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Aug. 9th, 2004 @ 09:44 am
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Aug. 7th, 2004 @ 11:26 am
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So, new iconey goodness.
K, it's your fault, I blame you. :)
These computers are reminiscent of molasses in January... in Michigan. The library people said that the IT guys are 'working on it' and they're sorry for the inconvenience.
yeah, yeah... whatever, dude.
today... what shall I do today... I shall finish cleaning my room, I think. I'd love to do laundry, but that's going to have to wait.
I have free minutes all weekend, so if you wanna chat me up, give me a call!
:D
Oh, OHOHOH! I remember now... at 1:27 a.m. lastnight/thismorning (whatever) I had woken up just enough to go potty... and then I heard my phone vibrating.
I wasn't sure who the FUCK would be trying to call me at that hour, so I trotted over (as much as one can 'trot' when you're 3/4 asleep) and found "Message Recieved", which, when I opened the folder, turned out to be TM goodness from ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) tendrils!!!!!!! who is my favorite aussie and that was YAYness. :D:D:D:D:D:D:D
Went back to bed with smiles and cute blonde boys in my head.
And yes, I actually managed to sleep after that, Paulie! ;)
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( April on the bus )
It’s odd that I’ve been having such strange and vivid dreams lately. I’ll have to go back through my journal entries and find out if there’s some sort of pattern to this weird-dream-having cycle I keep going through.
( Another one... )
I don’t know why I didn’t’ think of this sooner. I can make all the journal entries I want, save them to disk, and upload them to LJ in the morning.
( Mundanities )
( 68% ) |
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Aug. 6th, 2004 @ 12:11 pm
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So after spending half an hour making iconey goodness, I don't have much time left to update.
It's raining.
I'm on vacation for the next 2 weeks.
I'm supposed to be in Florence this weekend, but I'm willing to bet that J. *cough* 'forgot', so I doubt I'll be going.
I'm thinking about woolf, vampgyrl, and whoacaro because contrary to their beliefs, they are all doing exactly what they're supposed to be doing RIGHT NOW. Strength shows itself in myriad ways, and not always the ways we think it should.
I think half of our problems stem from thinking too much.
I know mine do. |
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Aug. 6th, 2004 @ 11:35 am
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Thank you medancer for finally posting the link to the bloody icon maker-thingie.
Yay, I've been waiting to do one of these for a while.
I only wish I was actually that cute.
:) |
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Aug. 5th, 2004 @ 02:09 pm
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Is anyone else's friends page a bazillion miles wide so that you have to scroll right to read everything?
That's REALLY bloody annoying. |
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Yoinked from medancer
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Aug. 5th, 2004 @ 10:43 am
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Aug. 5th, 2004 @ 10:16 am
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A few things...
*going to sleep unassisted for the first time in weeks... didn't even turn on the CD player
*contemplating how hard we all try to not face reality, but it's not keeping me awake at night
*sitting here typing, only to notice a little red dot of moving light on the tower next to me... I look to the helpdesk to find Rex waving his laser pointer at me. I told him that if he didn't stop I'd shove it up his nose.
A moment later I look back at him, only to find him with the laser pointer up his nose. He says, "What, like this?"
I, of course, burst out laughing in the middle of the library and disturbed the peaceful usage of the facilities by other patrons. *snerk*
Dream bytes:
*opening a dresser drawer, removing a piece of small clothes to find a 3/4" diameter spider sitting there.
*having conversations with Doc about death.... which stemmed from finding out that Loretta, a woman from the Tuesday night group who has been fighting cancer for the last four years was told this week that she's got 30-60 days at the most to live. |
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Aug. 4th, 2004 @ 03:04 pm
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What's up with Pea, y'all?
I think I'm going to cut my hair and dye it fuschia.
What do you think?
:D |
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Aug. 4th, 2004 @ 01:55 pm
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a) got busted using IM in the library. (sorry, girls...)
I've been "Given A Verbal Warning" by a Library Marm from Hell.
I wanted to suggest to her that it wouldn't kill her to buy some new batters for her B.O.B., but I refrained.
Why?
I don't know, feeling gracious today, I guess.
b) I forget what B was for.
*shrug*
Que sera sera, I suppose. |
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Aug. 4th, 2004 @ 01:40 pm
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I've avoided headstand since the last time I did it, when I tweaked my shoulder and was in excruciatng pain for two weeks.
That was six months ago.
Today, our instructor asked us if we wanted to do it. I wasn't terribly enthused because of my prior experience, but when I told her about it she offered to spot me if I wanted to try again.
So I did.
And wouldn't you know it, I feel 100% better now than I did before class... the sluggishness of the last few weeks has virtually vanished.
Interesting. |
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Aug. 3rd, 2004 @ 05:32 pm
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My "Erik the Viking" video showed up today! |
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Aug. 3rd, 2004 @ 05:08 pm
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In Finland, you can get out of military service by (having no social skills and, thusly,) being addicted to the internet.
A) Mandatory 6 month term in the military is a Good Idea... it would, at the very least, teach young men to clean up after themselves.
B) Wait until the US military starts hearing this one...
What fun! |
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Aug. 3rd, 2004 @ 01:40 pm
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I'll be back later.
I have to go home, have lunch, change clothes, gather up my music, the CD, and the speakers off my computer, and be back here by 6.
*sigh*
Laudamus Te, baby. |
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Aug. 3rd, 2004 @ 01:10 pm
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ooo, IM fun!
I love stupid people, really I do.
( stupid IM conversation )
( ... new dance stuff... )
There's stuff about my practice that I need to regurgitate, but it'll have to wait a while... |
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Aug. 3rd, 2004 @ 10:39 am
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Wilkommen to solar_diablo, who has spectacular taste.
:) |
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Aug. 3rd, 2004 @ 10:27 am
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I just finished reading a book called "Glimmering" by Elizabeth Hand. The book is fantastical, futuristic, apocalyptic and generally a great read.
The most interesting thing about it, though, was the fact that I encountered at least 10 words that I was unfamiliar with. This is extremely rare, and so I have marked the pages with the words-in-question and am now going to list them in turn while looking them up at www.dictionary.com.
( The Words ) |
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Aug. 2nd, 2004 @ 10:32 am
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Note to self:
Look up "birds" and "rats" in the dream book.
That was an odd one... they were EVERYWHERE. A Goffin's cockatoo, an umbrella cockatoo, some quakers, and a black gerbil mixed in with 2 litters' worth of 3 week old baby rats.
Weird scenes inside the goldmine. |
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Jul. 31st, 2004 @ 11:02 am
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Quickie: It's fine to have the heart of a poet.
Really? Should I eat it now or save it for Thanksgiving dinner?
But maybe you should write some poems, too.
You don't want me to write poetry. Someone could get hurt that way... besides, there's a vulnerability involved with writing poetry that I'm simply not interested in indulging in. One needs a safe place for that, and I don't have one.
Overview: Whether or not your current 'admirer' (what current admirer?) is technically available won't matter to you.
No, it usually doesn't.
It may matter to someone else, however.
And?
Keep them in mind before you take that next step.
Oh, don't worry, I'll know whether or not they can actually DO anything to me or not before I move forward. :)
I'm snotty today, forgive me. |
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Jul. 29th, 2004 @ 10:59 am
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Morning!
I'm not nearly as enthusiastic about it as that greeting would indicate, but I'm trying my damnedest to put a good face on it.
Last night was spent working on Vivaldi.
Joyous, that was. Finally had to put the headphones on so I could turn it up loud enough to find the alto line. *shakes head* why on earth was I born with this low voice rather than highpitched girlie voiceness?
*le sigh*
i guess I wouldn't quite be ME otherwise, would I?
Neither T nor E returned my phone calls as of yet, no surprise there... testicular fortitude being in such short supply and all...
Oh well. talking to a very nice individual in IM (hi, zzyzx!) and am fixin' to go to class.
Only 4 classes left until I get 2 weeks off (in which to totally jack up my sleep schedule and lose all of my self-discilpine...)
Yay. |
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Jul. 28th, 2004 @ 01:59 pm
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Indignant?
that's so cute.
Who is one step ahead of who depends SOLELY on which way one is heading, but if you need to be ahead in order to feel good about yourself, you go right ahead, honey. I won't take that away from you.
In other news, buying a house together? Getting a dog? Oh, lordy, sir, you are quite... quite... Good lord, I'm at a loss for words.
Something will come to me, I'm sure of it.
It's funny... I always thought I was a good judge of character.
Of course, I'm learning from my myriad experiences that I am not anywhere NEAR a good judge of character.
Charisma and a pretty face do not good character make.
I need to remind myself of that from time to time. |
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Jul. 28th, 2004 @ 01:28 pm
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Right, so I guess TOTAL FUCKING INCOMPETENCE is a job requirement for the people in the admissions office.
I've been in there 3 times today.
Why?
Well, the first two were legit, I'll give them that.
I went in the first time without the appropriate signatures.
Fine.
So I go get the appropriate signatures.
I go back.
They drop stuff and add stuff.
Groovy.
Then I look at my final printout again and notice that my AP class is nowhere to be seen.
So I look closer, and notice that a class I did NOT want (or write on the drop/add slip) was on the list.
I march my happy (not) self right back in there and stand there right in front of the girl who'd helped me last and after she tried to ignore me for three minutes or so I asked her (aloud, but politely) "would you like to correct your mistakes, please?"
She looked like I slapped her in the face.
But her supervisor came over, looked at the list, and said, wow, i don't know how we could have confused those two classes, the numbers aren't anywhere close to the same.
No, they're not, which is why I said that TOTAL FUCKING INCOMPETENCE must be a requirement to work in the admissions office.
Grrrr.
I really REALLY hate having to do stuff twice.
But THREE times?
For fuck's sake, people.Sensory:  aggravated |
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Jul. 28th, 2004 @ 10:48 am
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A few things:
* I'm avoiding the DNC because I am ver susceptible to getting caught up in causes I care about, and right now if I were to get caught up in political brouhaha, I would drop out of school and fuck myself royally. As that is a bad idea, I simply don't watch. Call it self-preservation, if you will.
(Although after all the talk of Kennedy's speech, I think I shall have to read it.)
* I haven't heard back from T yet... I think I might call him later today to find out whether he's told C yet or not. I'll bet not. J, get ready to get C's email addy from your wife and send it to me, because I'm going to hold to my word... he's got until Friday to tell her, and I'll tell her on Saturday if he doesn't.
* Haven't heard from charon23 in almost a month.
DUDE, call me. I'm getting worried.
* Talked to Doc and Vicki last night regarding my courseload and the program, requirements for which were posted this week (EEEEK!) and Doc agreed that I should drop A Capella, because Chambers will be MUCH more challenging (EEEK) and he's taking us to ENGLAND in spring.
*insert happydance here*
* April and I are going to work up the "Laudamus Te" from Vivaldi's "Gloria" and dazzle him with it when he calls for volunteers. *beams*
Good stuffs all arouind. |
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Jul. 28th, 2004 @ 10:33 am
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( An historical speech at the DNC... )
Hell yes.
We need more like him. |
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Jul. 27th, 2004 @ 10:48 am
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That's just hilarious, girls.
Really.
Have another drink.
In the real news, talked to J. last night and filled him in on the latest debacle. He was as flabbergasted as everyone else.
My mother even asked me, "Why is your life like this?" to which I replied, "Well, mom, sometimes I ask for it, but this time I was just standing there and the steamroller ran over me. I think it's funny."
Of course she looked at me like I'm insane.
Which, of course, those who aren't in the know suggest I am.
Today is good day because Brad and his son Yancy are coming to pick me up from school and take me to dive chinese for lunch.
B's exact words were, "Yancy and I would like to take you to lunch tomorrow, if you're free..."
How's a girl supposed to say no to that?
Of course, the catch was that they want to go swimming afterwards, but that's totally fine... I normally won't go by myself and I've been dying to get in the pool... our pool area is exceptionally beautiful, but for some reason I never go by myself.
And maybe the cutie redhead hippie chick will decide to come swimming, too. :D
Oh, and I checked out 8 movies from the library last night... Oscar winners that I've not seen, every one. Children of a lesser God, One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest, Cabaret, La Cage Au Faux, The Piano, The Lion in Winter, and I forget the others.
Anyway, have good movie-watching to do whilst I sort through the bazillion boxes of christmas ornaments and whatnot.
You wouldn't think that two non-christians would have soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo*GASP*oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much christmas stuff, would you?
Anybody need a bunch of verging-on-antique Xmas decorations?
They're gonna be free for the taking once we've gone through and sorted out what we're keeping...
*eyebrow wiggle* |
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Jul. 26th, 2004 @ 08:09 pm
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In other, less stupid news, math is OVAR and I don't have to get up early for math for another MONTH... except I had to change my schedule for fall...
M/W/F:
8 a.m. Piano II with the new teacher
9 a.m. Survey of American Music with Doc (YAY!)
10 a.m. MAT092 with Mrs. J. from MAT 082 (YAY!)
11 a.m. Theory
NOON M/W: Cadence F: Studio
1 p.m. Chambers
T/Th:
9:15 Aural Perception
10:20 Yoga
NOON A Capella (except I don't know if I'm going to do A Capella, I have to talk to Doc first...)
Tuesday nights is Sun Valley, and Friday nights is belly dance (yes, I'm finally going back to it, like a good little addict)
Blahblahblah, I made a huge dent in unpacking more of my house this weekend, I watched a LOT of movies since I stole my VCR back out of mom's room, and I hung out with B TH/F & Sunday nights, which was good.
There's more, but I'm bleary-eyed and I think I'm going to go home.
Peace |
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Jul. 24th, 2004 @ 12:37 pm
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I just went to sign up for Netflix's free trial thingie, but they don't have either of the movies I wanted to rent.
So fuck 'em. |
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Jul. 24th, 2004 @ 11:37 am
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Jul. 22nd, 2004 @ 01:35 pm
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And now for something completely different.
Jessi, check your text messages.
Marshall, post something. Anything, just to let us know you're not dead.
Karl, move. *insert whipcrack here*
Jeff, investigate.
Kaerla, stop calling me. ;)
Tim, take some time off.
Everyone else, carry on.
*nod*
Going home for lunchy goodness, and then tonight is Movies At Brad's House.
He has A/C, and that's really all I care about right now.
(Yes, my a/c has been down all this time. Fuckers. I'm soooo about to make htem give me free electricity for the next two months.) |
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Jul. 22nd, 2004 @ 10:20 am
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An addendum to that last post.
Not all people suck.
For instance, benevolentdiety, my favorite Heffe, is the stand-up guy of stand-up guys and he's got my back, for which I am eternally and mushily grateful for.
Bestest of bests. |
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Jul. 22nd, 2004 @ 09:09 am
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Oh dear gods, they (from yesterday's rantypost) are STILL going on about it.
"You're purposely trying to be offensive"
No, honey, I don't have to try.
Stupid people take offense to me all the time.
I call it a gift.
:)
Math class is OVER.
I won't tell you what I got in it, because it's not pretty.
No more math during summer.
But now I know. |
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